The idea that its possible to evolve past our own self perceived limitations may seem like a good thing. It is, of course. But it might not seem that way at the time. We are forced out of our comfort zone into a moment where we are asked to crack open the shell of limitation to be reborn into a version closer to that of the higher self.
What happens
Sometimes severe tragedy does it. Those moments we hit rock bottom and simply don’t know how to go on. A loss of a parent, or a catastrophic business failure, a loss of a significant partner through lies or betrayal or death, or being in an abusive relationship we never imagined we would ever be in, can trigger hitting rock bottom. Where there is no where to go but up.
I talk about spiritual awakening a lot in my posts. But what I don’t share were the circumstances that triggered it. I’d never wish those on anyone, friend or foe. Because all the examples above are part of my own life story. It’s not all fairies and angel dust. It’s fucking torture to endure.
“You are one thing only. You are a Divine Being. An all-powerful Creator. You are a Deity in jeans and a t-shirt, and within you dwells the infinite wisdom of the ages and the sacred creative force of All that is, will be and ever was.” —Anthon St. Maarten
I try not to talk about it much but this is the reality check: if you are interested in a spiritual awakening, consider losing everything you thought you couldn’t live without, your loves, your children, your family. Part of my own was having a vindictive ex weaponize my children so I would have no contact illegally for nearly two years. I took it at the time and didn’t fight it because at the time I had such low self esteem that I thought this was the universe’s way of affirming I deserved this. I didn’t. But it took this journey to find out that I deserve better.
If you can survive all of that at one time without taking yourself out, then kudos to you, because what waits is having your beautiful life handed back to you multiplied exponentially. Abuse is abuse. And if you’re experiencing it from someone who wants to destroy you, trust me, you don’t deserve it. You need support. If you look back over all my posts, you’ll begin to see a pattern of wanting to hand a cup of cool water to someone who’s lost everything. Because that is what spiritual awakening is all about. Sorry to disappoint.
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